Alone......

Have you ever felt like there's nobody in your world that understands you completely? That's what it's like for me. Whenever I get into one of those states it's like I'm all alone and can't confide into anyone and if you try then they don't understand what you're talking about or they misinterpret everything you say. It's just so weird because you have so many friends but you can't talk to a single one without getting judged by them. It's not like you're going to go through with what you're thinking. Most of the time the thoughts that come through my mind are the ones where you ask yourself what if this happened instead of this. I always wonder what my life would've been like if I did just one thing differently. My loving boyfriend wanted me to open up to him when I was in one of my moods and he didn't understand what I was saying. I think I actually scared him with my thoughts. I love him and I know he cares for me but there are just some things he won't ever understand about me and it scares me a little bit. He's the one person right now I can talk to anything about except when it comes to that and I just feel like I'm all alone in the world...